FunLife;WildLife;BoringLife. LOVE MY LIFE!

2011-05-20T00:24:00.003+08:00

PEOPLE changes damn fast...4 years old i am still an innocent young ugly girl. 3 years ago turn rebellious, still ugly but learning how to improve on looks and figure :x haha, dun believe in others, love and studies... 2 years ago start to believe in people again BUT met a stupid bastard. nvm can say enjoy the times with him but hate the times with him too. BUT must thanks him too, made me understand alot things. changed back to the old me then 1 year ago, met this piggy of mine, life changes abit but still.........HOWEVER, enjoyed the times with piggy, now still enjoying(:
LOTS OF MISSES,
miss the times joking at KMI carpark while smoking,
miss the time dancing with friends,
miss the times emo-ing with friends too(: its when we really understand each other(: and know who is our true friend.....

2011-05-18T18:04:00.003+08:00

SARA!!! haha. she nv fail to make my LOL! i know my pics abit act cute but WHATEVER! its better that i act cute now then act cute when i am old right?!

2011-05-17T03:16:00.002+08:00

BORING POA! but fun time with friend(: CARRIE NAMI! sara(blur sotong)is mugging-.-

2011-03-22T01:35:00.001+08:00

我还是摸不透你的心。。。
不知到你到底在想什麽，想要做什麽。。。

2011-03-09T00:46:00.002+08:00

(*^@%^* what do i really want?
好想放弃但是有好舍不得。
不懂他在想什么，好想懂但好想假装什么都不知道。
你是想放弃还是想继续？好想知道。。。
现在跟你在一起我只感觉到冷漠。
我好累，虽然我已做了最坏的打算但是还是好怕那天的到来。

2011-03-08T02:53:00.005+08:00

OVERVIEW for febuary...meet up with lesbo♥ camwhore(: haha. enjoy-ed(always) my time with her(:

camwhore as usual too....

& most importantly camwhore with deardear♥ ♥ ♥

2011-02-10T15:40:00.003+08:00

LIFE is so boring recently. everyday sleep wake up watch movie then meet dear dear♥ newyear just passed, 11th monthsary just passed. valentine day and 1st anniversary is coming(:

stupid past.stupid ex.

great lesson learnt.great BF i met.great present.

2011-01-12T12:33:00.012+08:00

SIS's wedding♥
morning fun:

night beauty:

2010-10-31T23:06:00.004+08:00

♥ what girlfriend do when boyfriend is sleeping???

zilian!!

afternoon went shopping with deardear♥ went penisula and shop then home): caz tmr got o's. but still happy!!!

2010-10-31T01:01:00.004+08:00

3 months never post(: my blog is dead, but who cares. o's has started and its ending soon! this going to be a picture blog soon! will only be posting pics :D

this is what happen when study become sian.................

2010-07-23T23:50:00.001+08:00

2010-06-23T00:31:00.002+08:00

NEW HAIR :D but at least not that ugly(:

2010-05-18T21:01:00.002+08:00

bored): at home now. so unusual. haha. caz dear dear went riding & i came home. was digging all the thing collecting dust in my com. & found my family photo(: hehe. my cute funny family irritating sometimes-.- i look damn cui there but whatever. its meant to focus on my family and not my face.

2010-04-24T23:10:00.003+08:00

DEAR DEAR♥ ohno! my cheeks getting fatter & fatter!!

050310♥

cute dear dear♥ dunno what he trying to do(:

jiaobins!!

shuai shuai dear dear♥

2010-04-18T02:13:00.003+08:00

SENTOSA!had so much fun there(: hahaha. played rugby & water monkey. lots of jokes & laughter. went timah after that. :D lazy describe so go to facebook to see all the videos bah and photos below:D

2010-04-16T22:36:00.005+08:00

13-04-10:

cute dear dear♥ went to climb up the snooker table! hahaha!

16-04-10:

HAPPY 54th BIRTHDAY! DADDY!♥

2010-03-29T13:58:00.005+08:00

做人何必做到这样？nth speacial this few days. is just timah. dear dear♥ house and vivo on fri nia. watched kidnapper le! hmm rate 3.5/5 bah. quite nice and touching(: and i cried-.-
why must you changed until like that? worth it? people will like it?

long long time since i took photo with honey(:

best smile award! hahaha.

OVERDUE PHOTOS:

cute siblings of different size :D

spastic darren!

cutest couple :D hehehe.

2010-03-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY!! today woke up at around 4+am saw dear dear♥ sms and replied him then went back to lala land so 5+am woke up again and dear dear♥ said he reach home le. so i say goodnight to him then slept again-.- 6.15am someone called me and is dear dear♥ (: haha. thought he want chat in the end he told me he under my block and he is fetching me to school!!! :D hehehehe.♥♥♥
but saw some bitches...(:
&&& NAPFA finished! my last NAPFA in my life! :D

2010-03-23T21:40:00.002+08:00

conbine science(: it is damn easy lor. alot of things excluded and heng got fiq same class as me then not so loner there. hahaha. nowadays addicted to snooker. its so damn fun(: tmr is 5 stations liao. scared fail-.- hahahaha. i wan watch ju-on & kidnapper!!!!

messy hair for both photo-.-

glad that you moved on :D

2010-03-21T13:58:00.002+08:00

Is it worth doing something that wouldn't benefit you? whatever you are
doing is just making yourself irritating to others. they will hate you more
& you might not be able to achieve what you want. 拿得起，放得下。should be the
way(:

2010-03-20T01:31:00.003+08:00

cant sleep..but i need wake up early tmr and tmr night not sleeping. how? eyebag sure get more & more jialat de. looking forward to tmr though(:

I AM A BITCH.

think i am starting to depend on liqour too much...thats the only way i found so far that make me thought-less.

2010-03-19T00:50:00.003+08:00

CAN I BE MORE COLD BLOODED? hehe:D today i went crazy & siao again. so long since i am the crazy kuku me le:D went to find dear dear & he still in his lala land when i reach his house lor. but he had fever after that ): told him dun go out today le. nua at his home whole day but he die die want to poke those balls when the cue-.- so went timah with xavier & pui pui (: hahaha. i played today caz..i dunno why too. just got the mood to. then i won dear dear :D hahaha. i went more high after that. first time sia. but caz he sick thats why i can win. hahaha. then sort of send dear dear to his house there & slack awhile then i cab home(:

flash too strong :x

why cant i more cold blooded and dun care about other feeling so much? it has been 4 years that i have always think too much for others. i am tired. really tired. what can i do now? i felt so guilty. i wanted to change you. but i failed instead i think i cause you to fall damn hard too and now you are sort of worst. not in the way that you turn more ahbeng but you are lost in your direction of life. i'm really guilty. but i really don't know what to do too. can anyone tell me? there's no way to correct this thing. what done has been done.

i <3 my dear dear alot & nv regret being with him or neither did i take him as a replacement of him. whatever i've said is just caz i still treat him as a normal friend and i felt bad about what i cause my friend to turn into.

2010-03-18T00:48:00.002+08:00

EYELASHES~ hehe. today was waiting dear dear end school and went to camwhore. and took this unglam photo but it shows my long eyelashes!!! hahaha:D jealous? its not fake eyelash ok?!

ignore all the stupid decoration:X its to cover up all the unglam part. hahahaha...

SHOULD I CUT MY FRINGE??!
and
HAPPY BELATED BDAY HONEY~ forget to post on sunday:x can finally enter legally and open table at mambo le:D happy SWEET~ 16th (:

last time that i am going to cry for you.. i cried not cause you are not beside me anymore but is cause i regret hurting you last time. thanks for all the memories you gave me i will buried it somewhere in my heart(: hope your hand recover fast. now i found the new start of my life hope you will find the girl that will treasure you in the future and let me be in your past bah(: hope i gave you some happy memories too.

(L) Dear dear to the max(: thanks for your love & care everyday(:

2010-03-17T12:07:00.006+08:00

MADLY IN LOVE with my new nails(: hehehe. they are damn fucking chio can. ytd went to watch being human with dear dear, junwei and kelvin. hahaha. the show is funny but turn damn funny due to junwei and dear dear laughter. hahahaha. dear dear laughed damn loud can. everyone looking at him. so paiseh. haha. we planing to go and watch happy go lucky and ju-on!! hahaha. finally new ju-on coming out on thurs.

ARH!! pimpleS!

MADLY IN LOVE WITH DEAR DEAR TOO(: never failed to make my day happy(:

2010-03-15T00:51:00.002+08:00

• honey birthday today but forget bring her present out :X
• dear dear cut hair today..but no diff. hahahahaha
• phone confiscated. so i will reply you all super late..
• just finish chatting with dear dear:D
• shouldnt be online now caz told dear dear i go sleep but.. hehehe.. cant sleep..bet he is aready in his lala land and snoring liao.
• going to sleep le(: online also bored and promise dear dear to sleep too(:

goodnight :D

2010-03-13T22:22:00.002+08:00

*blank* today basically is nth. went for oko just now. talked with gekku and xiangjun. hahaha. gekku damn joker lah. we 2 laughed damn loud in the carpark. and he brought a 7 years martell!! omg~ so tempted. but too bad cant. that ongxiangjun keep growing taller lah. so irritating. now i look super short with them. haha. and they argued about them being a virgin-.- after homed with mum....

thanks dear dear for being with me just now(:

feeling damn moody this 2 days. i dunno why too. thoughts are flowing through my mind. feel like crying. perhaps what gekku said might be true but i dun want it to be true):

2010-03-13T01:10:00.003+08:00

muscle ache): sports carnival today(: quite fun..but is all cause of our self entertainment(: lost the first match today. but the opponent was ok. but me and shuxian was the shooter and defender...so we had to run full court. sweat like as if i just bath finish. then went slack around. watch the guys vball match. lol. damn funny. vball become football. then izzac told me & shuxian a joke.

"if bees make honey then what kind of bees make milk?"
Ans: boo-bees

and shuxian didnt get what he mean.. (boobies) lol! really sotong lah this girl. lol. then slack around with rowena honey! they went rc and wait for hanyan then homed. bath. change and went panjang with piggy(: slack at his house. cooked for him. and feel so shag as it was a failure-.- then rest awhile and he go riding. first time in my life that i sit on others bicycle. the feel is weird~ then something happened. i almost went crazy and stated shouting softly......then cab home after that(:

lower back tattoo? yes?? no?? but piggy said no...

2010-03-07T13:06:00.007+08:00

everyday is a better day:D ytd slept till 11++ caz some stupid ass raynon woke me up from my lalaland.. then woke up bath and everything and wait for a piggy to wake up. waited will like 1plus 2 plus like that-.- then pei him go home change and bath. smelly piggy(: then went timah and pooled then after that we were smoking then celene that group walk past so wave bye then nicholas say xinyi unfriendly so stupid piggy went to suggest we shout bye bye in the end only me lah. damn fucking xiasuey. and that stupid piggy still loud the loudest-.- dao him for awhile then he start tickling me damn itchy lah. then he still go teach nicholas how to kuji xinyi. haha. then cab came, nicholas went to ask if 5 people can. then uncle say cant and nicholas went to whack his door in the end the uncle reverse and guailan. haha. so xiasuey. proceed to teckwhye with bus after that. bought vodka and drink at the highest floor and played dare & dare! i LC with xinyi lor. hahaha. and raynon lick his own shoe..:D everyday had fun with them(: then cabbed home. send mathias back first then to my place then to nicholas place. bath and slept immediatly(:

tag reply:D lazy to reply in tagboard:x
xinyi(nicholas gf) , xinyi, celene, jolin; all linked:D
passerby; i found in at flashfetish.

2010-02-28T01:20:00.002+08:00

JUNWEI's 17th BIRTHDAY!

mathias face extra..LOL!

LOL! kelvin extra!

ignore my ugly face-.- hahaha:D kelvin and junwei's funny face and a cock face beside them(:

went pangjang meet mathias then meet that cock face then went meet the rest and go to I GOTTA FEELING (:haha. didnt sing much but i sing the most within them-.- but lucky we got entertainer MR JUNWEI the bday boy. crap here crap there. laugh like hell. then went for pool. feeling for pool start to come back liao(: good good. then on 985 to panjang saw doggy/tiko! haha. laugh like idiot in bus then went to eat. here come the most xiasuey part.i was going to sit down then xinyi shouted XIAOQIANG. then i stun and ask where and she said BEHIND ME. and i screamed damn loud. stupid mathias still keep laugh laugh laugh. lucky alot drunkards at the kopitiam nia. which i assume they cant hear. but still i felt like digging a hole and hide inside ): then here i am now. slacking alone at home): lucky got people pei me sms and chat on phone(:

2010-02-26T23:14:00.002+08:00

:D hahaha. these days laughing like siao. school turn fun too. dunno why. full of crap and joke(: realise our class actually is bonded de lor. hehehe. dun care girl or guy. tmr kbox! i gotta feeling!! hahahaha.. shuxian!!!! lesbo!!!! fuck! i think i am going crazy soon!

2010-02-24T21:56:00.003+08:00

TECHNO siao coming back(:

junwei and his parents. hahaha. joker family(:

2010-02-16T22:58:00.003+08:00

RIP, aunty died today at 2+am. woke up went and just in time to see her being "qing" down to the voiddeck and put the body into the coffin. went home. miaoting come bainian then at night went back again. chatted with cousins laughed like hell too. haha. we realise we got serioud generation gap. hahaha. tmr school. boring.... homework.... these few days will sat i will be school and songka everyday. keeping myself occupied is the only way to stop the medication. sat night will be happying with friends(: drinking~ crapping~ distressing~ sun will be getting angbao~

anyone know anyway to keep myself occupied till i sleep everyday? night is always torturing..quiet and thinking too much.

2010-02-15T21:43:00.002+08:00

CNY! ytd was bored. went uncle house but he isnt there to celebrate new year with us anymore but went there as a respect for my aunty. stayed at home after that. today went ahma house. gamble & crap with cousins as usual. those kors kors are still the best. they are really born to be a clown. make you laugh like hell. hahaha! this year they became the fortune teller. hahaha. after that went miaoting house to bainian. then wanted to go play jubeat and have dinner but something happen and alot of thing happened. regretted my stupidness. but still cant blame anyone but myself. everything since last year all i could do is blame on myself. now i have a frog voice and i will have difficulties singing properly.

this time round i have fallen very badly real bad i could feel the pain not only in my heart but everywhere. today i have finally seen everything, realise eveything and woken up from everything. the muijie thats hard to get close to is back. she learnt to protect herself from getting hurt is far more important than thinking if others will get hurt. this 2hour of being forced to calm down has woken me up. you pulled me out of my oldself now you pushed me so hard that i fall damn badly and has turned worst than last time. perhaps thats a lesson learn for me.

2010-02-14T18:08:00.003+08:00

): its only 3 days. i thought i could cancel it forever. dun need to read again. but it happen again. this time i realise it all along is my fault. sorry.

一直不敢去面对的事，还是的面对。
if you really feel so tired that you want to let go, i will leave....

我一直都很依赖你也很害怕如果有一天不能在依赖你了该怎么办？没想到那一天以到来了.
maybe letting you go is the best choice for you bah. no point hanging on when you are feeling so tired. i knew it long ago. i trying hard to change but maybe our character really dun suit each other bah. i have been thinking to let go but i really just cant bear to. i thought hanging on to you and time will solve everything. in the end everything got worst. i know you can live happily even if i am not with you anymore. really hope you can take care of yourself well and pass this 1 year observant period. find a good girl and treasure her :D goodbye my love, the first one that i loved so much...

please dun hurt yourself again....
i know i am feeling miserable now but i got to carry on.等我伤了，痛了，习惯了，麻痹了，我就不会感到那么痛了。我很好，我会勇敢的去面对，逃避以不能解决问题了。The sadest thing in life is that you love someone so much and he love you alot too but you two just cant be together.

MEMORIES ARE BEING KEPT INSIDE ME. EVEN IF ONE DAY WE BECAME STRANGERS, AT LEAST I STILL REMEMBER THE HAPPY MEMORIES WE HAD.

2010-02-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

LOVED :D super in love with my nail and contacts (:

2010-02-13T10:29:00.004+08:00

): blog hopped and saw this story. added in the english part incase people like my pig like that de that dunno how to read chinese. haha. the stroy is damn sad. why cant people just speak out what they are thinking? arent that better? letting your love ones know how you feel. perhaps you may say you scared they may get worried or angry but do you know that you are making us even more worried for you but cant do anything cause you did not want to open up to us.

sometimes i really wish that i can know you better. like that i am able to care for you more and understand you better, do whatever i can do for you but you always just choose to hide it, dun wan to mention about it.

今天期中考，学校早一点放学，我打了通电话给他。
today is EOY examinations, school will end early, i
called him.
：喂，我今天比较早放学，你来载我回家好不好？
hey, today i will end school earlier,
you fetch me home ok?
：好，等我五分钟。
ok, give me 5 mins
：五分钟？我学校就在你家旁边耶。
5 mins? your house is just beside my school.
：我总要打扮一下啊。
i need time
to dress up right.
：好啦，快一点喔。
ok ok. faster.

下午2：00，太阳大的让我有种冲动想喷鼻血，我站在树荫下挥动着手，虽然没凉到哪里去，但是煽总比不煽好。
2p.m the weather
is so hot and always made my nose bleed, i stand under the tree, waving me hand,
though it did not help much but at least better than nothing.
五分钟过了，他还没来，我看看手表，有点不高兴，十分钟过了，他还没到..，该不会出了什么事吧？
5 mins pass, he is still
not here yet, i look at my watch, feeling a little unhappy, 10 mins later, he is
still not here.....did something happen to him?
呸呸呸…乌鸦嘴，十五分钟过了，他总算到了。
choi....touch wood. 15 mins past, he finally came.

：怎么这么慢？
why
so slow?
他一副无所谓的样子说：没啊，看个电视。
nothing, watching tv. he said it with a
cant be bothered face.
什么？看个电视？你要不要顺便睡个觉洗个澡吃个饭再来？
what?! watching tv? do
you want to take a nap, take a bath, eat your lunch then come?
我没有说话，没有拿安全帽，没有上车的瞪着他。
i did not talk, did not take the helmet, did not
go up the bike, standing there staring at him.
：对不起。
"i am sorry"

这是他第一次对我说对不起，他是一个很大男人主义，爱面子的男生，所以他从不像女生低头说对不起，我看着他，好吧，似乎面有惭色，我带上安全帽，让他载我回家。
this is the first time he said sorry, he is someone with lots of ego, hence
he never ever give in to a girl and say sorry. i look at him, ok, i wore the
helmet and shall let him send me home.
他总是这样，从来不解释，不争论，不跟我吵架，只跟我说对不起，有些事，不是一句对不起就能解决的，但是他都跟我道歉了，我也就没再追究下去，他说，我是第一个让他说对不起的女生。
he is always like that, always did not want to explain, fight to explain
himself and quarrel with me. all he do is apologise. something, a" i am sorry"
cant solve it. however, he aready apologise hence i didnt bother about the
matter too.he told me i am the first girl that made him apologise.
认错需要很大的勇气，但是他从来都没有改进他的错误，对不起反而变成一种打发我的话。
admitting wrong needs alot of
courage but he never change, "i am sorry" became something that he said just to
make thing simple and end the topic faster.
在他说第59次对不起时，我流着泪，低下头说：你不要再跟我说对不起了，如果你无法改变，就不要让我给你一次又一次的机会，相信你会改变。
when
he said the 59th "i am sorry", tears rolled down my cheeks,"dont say sorry to me
anymore, is you cant change, then stop making me giving you one chance after
another, i believe you will change"
他轻轻的拥着我，说了第60句对不起。
he hugged me and
said the 60th "i am sorry"
虽然如此，他还是没有改变，不做任何的解释，我开始怀疑他是不是有事瞒着我。
however,
he still didnt change, did not bother to explain himself, i start to suspect
that he is hiding something from me.

：你最近怎么了？
what happen to you
recently?
：没有啊。
nothing.
：那你为什么心情不好？
what made you so moody?
：没有啊。
nothing
：又是没有啊，你除了这句话以外没有别的吗？你知不知道我很担心，很没有安全感，你到底有没有当我是你女朋友？
nothing again! do you know how to reply using other words? do you know that
i am very worried, feeling insecure, did you treat me as your girfriend?
：…对不起。
i am sorry
：我不要听你说对不起。
i dun wan to hear your "i am
sorry"
我挂了电话，他也没有打来，他根本就不在乎我，也许，我们该结束ㄌ……….这是他说的第99句对不起….。
i hang the
phone. he did not call back too. he did not bother about me, perhaps its time to
let him go.....this is his 99th "i am sorry".
从那天开始，我再也没有找过他，他也没有打电话给我，有时候，我会接到一通无声的电话，但是我喂了几声，就挂了，有一种直觉是他，但是他为什么都不说话？
since then, i did not contact him, he did not call me too. sometimes, there
will be a silent call, i said hi and few times and the guy hang up. i got a
feeling is him but why he did not want to talk?
一个月之后，我按奈不住思念的心情决定到他学校找他，我在教室外东张西望的，就是没有看到他的人影，我随便抓了一个男生来问。
a month
later, i decided to go his school find him, i realise i cant forget him at all.
i glanced in the classroom but didd not see him, hence i grabbed a guy and asked
him.

：同学，请问一下，梦伟今天有来吗？
hi, did meng wei come to school today?
：他休学了。
he quit school.
：啊？为什么？什么时候的事？
huh? why? when did this
happen?
：他已经一个月没来了。
it has been a month.
：…喔..谢谢。一个月..一个月没来，怎么会呢？
oh... thanks. one month... one month didnt come. why?

我跌跌撞撞的回到家..拨他的手机：您的电话已经为您转到语音信箱，请在嘟一声…。
i walk home slowly with my
mind blank.. called his phone but it was transfered to mailbox....
我挂了电话，打到他家，响了好久都没有人接，怎么会？全家移民吗？他仿佛是从这世界上消失了一样，没有一点痕迹。
i called his
house but no one pick up, why? did his whole family emigrate? he seems to
dissapear in this world.
他该不会另结新欢了吧？我开始胡思乱想，我找不到他..，正当我烦恼的时候，电话突然响了，是阿立打来的，他是梦伟的死党也是我的好友。
did he
find a new girlfriend? i start to think alot. i cant find him.....when i am
feeling troubled, my phone ring, it is ahli. mengwei's buddy, my good friend.

：喂，你还在干嘛啊？
hi what are you still doing?
：什么？
huh?
：ㄚ伟在医院啦。
ahwei in hospital.
：真的？他怎么了？
really? what happen to
him?
：没有啦，他在○○医院，就是你上次住的那一家。
nothing, he at oo hospital, the one you
stayed in last time.
：我马上去。
ok. i rush over.

我立刻用我出生以来最大的速度飙到那家医院，在医院看到了他****和妈妈，我向他们问了他在哪一间病房之后，就急忙的飞奔而去。
i used
the greastest speed since i ever born to rush to the hospital, at the hospital i
say his parents and ask for his bed number.
他躺在床上，眼睛看着我，没有说话，没有起床，一动也不动的。
he lied on the bed, looking at me, did not speak a single word, never move.

：喂，你怎么了？为什么不通知我呢？
what happen to you? why you didnt contact me?
他没有回答我，只是一直用同样的眼神看着我。　　
he didtn reply, using the same kind of look
looking at me.
：回答我啊，你为什么不说话？
reply me.. why you never talk?
他眼角留下了一滴泪，身体仿佛用了最大的力气，牵动着嘴角　　：…对不起…。
a tear rolled down from the corner
of his eyes, using his greatest strength and move his mouth, " i am sorry"
说完，他闭上了眼睛。　　：喂，你别装了好不好，为什么要说对不起，我不要你说对不起啊，你起来啊，回答我啊。
after that, he
closed his eyes... hey! you dun act can? why say sorry? i dunwan you to say
sorry. wake up! reply me!

我哭倒在他床边，拉着他的衣服哭喊着：你为什么要说对不起，连说服我的理由都没有？我不会原谅你，你起来啊，你说对不起没有用啊，你不起来我这辈子
都不会原谅你，我求求你….睁开眼睛啊…。　　
i fell beside his bed crying, holding on to his
shirt and shouting; why you dun want to reply me?? you cant even convince me
with anything, i will not forgive you! you wake up arh! there no use for you to
say sorry! you owe me for life, i will not forgive you! i beg you....open your
eyes arh!!.
这是他说的一百句对不起…一群医生和护士拉开我，开始抢救他，我全身没有力气再站起来，我的头脑一片空白，眼前一片漆黑..。　
this is his 100th sorry...a group of doctor and nurses pull me away and
start to rescue him. i did not have the energy to stand up, my mind is blank,
all i see is a patch of darkness.
　
他没有离开这个世界，只是我永远都无法触摸到他，但他有时也会在我的梦中出现，告诉我他过的好不好。
he didnt leave this
word, is just that i cant touch him forever, but he would appear in my dream
sometimes and tell me that how he is living.
他还是陪着我，还是活着，在我心里，他依然如昔，还是会笑着叫我咏熙，叫我老婆，只是..他不再对我说对不起了…。
he is still with
me, still alive, in my heart, he is still like the past, still call me yongxi,
still call me wifey, its just that....he dun say sorry to me anymore...
过了几个月，他妈妈来找我，给了我一个盒子，里面装的，是一百张照片，每一张照片的背面，都写着它让我生气的事情。　
after a few
months, his mum came and look for me, she passed me a box, there 100 photos
inside. behind each photo, he wrote and the things he made me angry.
第一次对不起，老婆，我今天不是故意迟到的，我也知道理由很烂，但是我真的不忍心说实话，我在出门前突然心脏绞痛，但是我已经尽量赶了，原谅我好吗？
第二次对不起?老婆，我………. 　　第三次对不起，老婆，我… 　　………………………….. 　　………………………. 　　………………. 　　…………….
　　……….. 　　……… 　　…..
　　第一百次对不起，老婆，我不是狠心要丢下你，只是上帝似乎不给我这个机会让我爱你一辈子，为你带上戒指，你是我第一个让我说对不起的女孩，也是我第一
个想共度一生的女孩，原谅我不能给你幸福，我会化作天使，守护着你，看着你得到幸福，答应我，别哭，我不要看到你为了我憔悴流泪的样子，我爱你。bye 梦伟
1st "i am sorry", wifey, today i am not purposely de, i know my excuse is
very lousy, but i cant bear to tell you the truth. before i went out i felt a
sharp pain in my heart, i tried to rush, forgive me?... 2nd"i am sorry", wifey,
i..............3rd "i am sorry" wifey, i..............
........................... ................. .......................
...................... ...................... .................................
........................
..................... .................. 100th "i
am sorry" wifey, is not that i want to leave you alone, is just that god dun
seems to give me a chance to love you forever, help you wear the ring. you are
the first girl that made me say i am sorry, you are also the first girl that i
wish to spend my whole life with. forgive me, forgive me for not able to
continue to love you and treasure you, i will made myself be your guardian
angel, protecting you, looking at you finding another guy that really love you.
promise me, dun cry, i dunwan to see you crying for me, feeling sad for me. I
LOVE YOU. bye mengwei.....
我怎么可能不哭，你的要求太严苛了，最后一张照片，是他在医院理拍的，照片上他笑的很灿烂，他变的好瘦，脸色好苍白，但是他还是露出了笑容，拍这第一百张照片。
how can i not cry, your request is too mean, the last photo is taken in the
hospital, in the photo, he smiled brightly, he slimmed down alot, he look very
pale, but he still showed his brightest smile and took the 100th photo....

2010-02-13T02:45:00.004+08:00

KBOX. after so long~ hehehe. still feel like going lor. today de singing partner abit diff; me, huiping, darren.c and hanyan.. haiyo the last 2 arh... me and huiping singing they at there hug here hug there. sweet talk here sweet talk there. so not use to it. hahaha. and that stupid hanyan 重色情友 lor. keep protext BF de. huiping singing is damn *(#*&$#* nice lah!! me and hanyan is super jealous about it lor.. how we wish we could be like her. jia ying also nice...unfair!!but at least still quite happy caz singing improved the little bit(: i want to be able to sing good not cause i want be singer hor. but is at least next time go singing with friends that i nv go with before de, i wouldnt feel malu to sing.hahaha.then when we going le, nicholas and xinyi come find us. another couple -.- poor me and huiping... then we wanted go do manicure de but the price is like more then triple the usual price lah! so expensive. everywhere also increase the price le. so talk talk awhile then went home le. hahaha. had nice chat with them and xinyi was quite friendly too but sometimes abit anti-social. but i was the odd one out. 2 couple and the solo me ):

this pig of mine went malaysia with his family le. ): need 3 more days then he coming back.... bored...and alot people keep say why he leave me in singapore alone during valentine day. hahaha. damn funny. but not his fault lah. this is what his family always do.

fucking miss you. come back quickly...

2010-02-10T21:11:00.005+08:00

一直不敢去面对的事，还是的面对。
if you really feel so tired that you want to let go, i will leave....

我一直都很依赖你也很害怕如果有一天不能在依赖你了该怎么办？没想到那一天以到来了.
maybe letting you go is the best choice for you bah. no point hanging on when you are feeling so tired. i knew it long ago. i trying hard to change but maybe our character really dun suit each other bah. i have been thinking to let go but i really just cant bear to. i thought hanging on to you and time will solve everything. in the end everything got worst. i know you can live happily even if i am not with you anymore. really hope you can take care of yourself well and pass this 1 year observant period. find a good girl and treasure her :D goodbye my love, the first one that i loved so much...

i know i am feeling miserable now but i got to carry on.等我伤了，痛了，习惯了，麻痹了，我就不会感到那么痛了。我很好，我会勇敢的去面对，逃避以不能解决问题了。The sadest thing in life is that you love someone so much and he love you alot too but you two just cant be together.

MEMORIES ARE BEING KEPT INSIDE ME. EVEN IF ONE DAY WE BECAME STRANGERS, AT LEAST I STILL REMEMBER THE HAPPY MEMORIES WE HAD.

2010-02-08T21:32:00.013+08:00

NEW YEAR. new life? think so bah. changing my life a little. my & lesbo planning to go back KMI le. damn long never go back le. people complainning too long nv see us le :x hahaha. used to be slacking partner but now all gone liao. so should be meeting them back bah:D waiting for Chinese New Year~ hehehe. totally CNY mood. no mood for school ): haiz got real confuse? confuse. confused! today. trying hard to accomodate but i still cant seems to understand what you thinking.
i'am like a flute. a nice looking made out of strong wood de flute. nice looking not in my looks but my life. it may seems so fun and occupied with fun things but its just normal. we may look very lovely but we are not, filled with ups and downs too. i look strong and brave but i am not. i just having a stong outlook but inside is actually empty.

2010-02-06T23:30:00.003+08:00

town :D went town with this pig up there for CNY shopping. bought my shoes. he bought his shirt, pants and shoe. hahaha. looking forward to CNY. gambling, $$ and shark fin for 3 days :D

then at night went to have reunion dinner with his family. feel quite weird caz his uncle aunty was there too. but after awhile ok le. the food was nice too :D

2010-02-01T22:57:00.003+08:00

NEW YEAR is coming~ not happy at all caz cant find any shoes that i like. yuanteng faced this problem too... haha. everyday is like so bored but funny and crazy within friends. more and more jokes and crap coming out. but more and more homework coming too-.- sec4 is sucky. posted caz got nth better to do.

haha. bad mouth all you want behind me. i cant be bother. caz i am not interested to know what people badmouth about me so if really want to say so much then talk to me straight bah. thats my character. want say then just say out and not hiding inside yourself and keep spread to friends. act of cowards!

dun like me just say. and keep your eyes to yourself. i dun think i need you all to look at me with your disgusting face and eyes. you think your eyes will rot? i think i will rot first when you "look" at me.

**p.s. i have a sudden change in thinking, i am now so bored and think life is boring till i welcome all spammers and haters. come my blog for all i care. you dare tag i tag to show and reply :D

2010-01-12T17:16:00.006+08:00

*i had blog is to blog about what happen to me and my feelings as i dun want to go and tell other people and ended up they are not even interested in it at all. so read my blog only if you are interested in know more about me bah. if not dun even bother to come my blog bah. nth is interesting about my blog.

back to blogging. sec 4 life = no life.. everyday is the same. wake up, go school study. eat. go home. dinner. sleep. then continue again but of course got alot of funny crap in between lah. everyones bored. stress and sian.

kind of luan this few days or maybe weeks bah. everything seems to be different from the past. didnt know what to do and doing nth but to adapt to it is the only thing that i can do bah. birthday coming! dunno going where to celebrate and with who. but before that just hope that common test faster end. hate looking at exam papers and next week starting time practise le. no more time for anything else le bah. not saying that you dun care about me but i just cant feel the importance of me to you. others seems to be more important. she can easily influence you in 1 day and i still cant after trying for 5 months+. lots of things wanted to tell you but i just cant make myself say it. i dun wish to keep quarrelling. sometimes i wonder if what your mum say is really true...i hope is just me being sensitive...

2009-12-20T00:00:00.006+08:00

REVIVE!!

and dead......

2009-11-22T01:02:00.002+08:00

MEMORIES....have been thinking about the past. and i am no longer the appear to be strong but weak muijie. i am no longer the one who always cried during ♥-to-♥ session girl. i have get away with all the "friends" i once had. now i really know who are those that cherish me and i cherish them alot too. PLANK sisters: once sisters, forever sisters. it has been 1 year in diff class but i believe the bond between us is still there. Dearest lesbo and honey: always the one there listening to all my complains and unhappiness. the 2 which i really enjoy ♥-to-♥ session with them and usually help me alot as they always know how to comfort me and understand how i feel. love lesbo hugs too. the hugs which makes both of us stronger. growing stronger together and no longer cry that easily. of course there are also alot of good friends which would really care for me and help me; kason, jason.a, darren.c, derrick, nazurah, liqing etc. and lots more. but some really dissapoint me alot. dun wan to say too much. but really glad to have my 7 dearest sisters with me :D

guys usually wun understand. its not the girls that dun trust them, its not the girls thinking too much, its not the girl being over sensitive or over controling. when the guys with us, we tried to be ok with it and always are ok with it. but whenever the guys are not with us, we are really not ok with it. its not what we want, but we just can control it but to be sad, angry. perhaps the guys should actually be relieved that the girls are like that. if the girl dun really love the guy and treasure the guy why must they hurt themselves emotionally sometimes when it get worst, physically.

2009-11-15T23:55:00.002+08:00

OMG! i become AHMA le. ytd saw my zharbor tummy very fat then know its pregnant le. didnt know why give birth so fast. today when still in my lalaland family keep kajiao me say she give birth le! haha. mum still shout say i become ahma le. then quickly seperate the taboh and zharbor in case they do again and pregnant again. i swear the babies are damn gross now. damn small no fur then haven open eye de. ee~ the mummy damn kelian lor. so weak then need take care so many babies. dunno exact how many but at least got 6 -.- OMFG. who want hamster??? i giving away some and keeping some(: will upload photo if manage to take photo of it.

2009-11-13T22:13:00.002+08:00

CHALET...finally 3d2n ended. did enjoy there.(somehow) have fun laughing at all those drunkards. especially when shuxian thought burger king is mc cafe and went in and sit down. haha. and she still keep emphasize that she is walking straight line and not drunk. did enjoy the times when drunk. all we do is laugh laugh laugh and no trouble at all.

enjoyment is just the small part in it. but the pain i got have aready made me forget the happy feeling i have.

2009-11-09T02:25:00.005+08:00

NEW HAIR.NEW LIFE?

I KNOW the 2 pics are like super act cute. but just tahan if not dun look (: hehehe. getting use to my new haircut le. but sometimes look nice but sometimes look horrible...AND the twist is there just to show my nail colour. super in love with it too. suppose to go back to school on wed. but who will want go and spoil mood just before chalet. somemore see that stuck at tv de ghost. total no mood. chalet must enjoy!! getting too many things in mind le. very shag... but HOLIDAYS here, holidays mood here too. soon it will be new year $.$ hehe. new clothes new everything. but before that JAPAN!!! though is go for religion but still super enthu about it. HAHA. lesbo is feeling excited too. but of course will miss you guys~ lesbo understand my feeling. but its just 5 days and i will be back with GIFTS (: someone ask me to bring hot babes back! hahaha :D

ohya!!

and and...

i got myself a maroon contact lens! not on purpose. thought it would be brownish but after i wear...its more to dark red. first time see scary. second time see NICE! :D

Confusion

2009-11-06T19:35:00.003+08:00

HOLIDAY :D hehe. finally end of sec 3 which mean starting of sec 4-.- haiz. karma keep coming like free flow de. going back to temple and chant le. hope all the things end fast and successfully. nothing else will happen again. fucking angry with a sstupid fat ass which like to pick on people and humilate people and has an evil heart! like to humilate people so much arh! caz always being humilated right. then find ways to revenge on another person. make use of your rights. at least we the scary one can climb out of the TV. not like you. give you plasma TV also cant climb out.

MISS MY OLD FRINGE ):

is it me being too sensitive nowadays??

2009-10-18T02:29:00.002+08:00

EXAM OVER :D

hehe. exams finally over(: but now still busy. busy with going out. busy with my 2 new babys. hahaha. they are damn bloody cute lah. but think they sure give birth to little hamsters de lor. scared damn mafan. but nvm. so who wan hamsters faster reserve. haha. though after exam but still got school. sian. got 2 weeks of forward track somemore-.- hate it. dunno whats the use.

2009-10-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

1 paper down :D today paper totally got no stress at all. dun have the exam feeling. NOT because i think the paper is easy and i know how to do every single thing. but i think is cause this week de exam all like nothing to study de. next week only got ss. next next week would be the super tense and stress week. all those need to memorise like siao de subject all cramp together and this is the first time i am so not confident in my EM. the basic is easier but i cant do those super complicated question which only require those basic formular. die die die. hope EOY only fail 1 subject as i know my physic is T-CMI (hahaha!!! max tune players should know why i laughing) de.mugging with my girlfriends recently.POHMUIJIE! faster buck up and study! no more slacking. haix dunno can mah.

put aside exam stuff. recently has been talking to my dear dear lesbo often. its really long long time since we meet and have heart to heart. though we still haven meet caz of exam but we have our heart to heart on phone(: really feel comfortable talking to her as she understand every single bit of me without the need of me telling her. this week alot alot of relationship problems came out. seeing friends one by one quarrelling and break up. this feeling really suck.

(if do not want to read super wordy and may get you confuse de post then dun read the below paragraph)
why must there be always ONE party that is giving up totally and tahan-ing things that they could not accept. but they didnt even dare to speak up and talk to another party caz they knew he/she would be angry. some just decided to give it a try and talk to he/she but what turns out is just like what they expected. problem is not solve but they will quarrel even more. why does he/she always take them for granted? they have feelings too. why does he/she always dun let them do things whick he/she like to do and always do. he/she always say that it is caz they will think too much but do you think that they wun think too much?

sorry for the wordy post. dunno why just feel like posting all this up. i have been using "he/she" and "them" is caz this case happen on alot of my friends not only my girlfriends but my other schoolmates too.

2009-09-26T12:49:00.002+08:00

EXAMS... eoy coming. study study study. next week going to study with all(??) my plank sisters le. hope is all bah. it has been so long since we meet up le. damn miss the time with them last year. damn miss 203'08. this few weeks getting damn stress up. eoy coming so fast and so many topics need to be revise. ytd talk to "sister" hahaha. got like someone le sia. hope can manage to jio dao her bah. has been reading alot people blog, all of them were stress up with eoy too. dun over stress people.
lesbo.. damn miss you, got lots of things want to tell you.
things just seems ok to you all. whatever you all do you think is a way of concern. but can you all think of how i will feel first mah. everyday check on my stuff, go and check my bag. i am aready 15 le. i know i am still underage but at this age i need my privacy too. i know now i have case, do you all think i would want to end myself in there? i just want to go out and i know what i am doing. no more playing no more pua stunt-ing. but everytime i go out you all will call my friend and check on me. tell you all got dance, you all dun believe and called aunty cindy to check. now i am on bail! not go in le or under probation. it just seems no diff to me. freedom and privacy being invaded. this cannot do that cannot do. no diff with me going in.

2009-09-21T02:39:00.000+08:00

TEMPTING? :D shared work of me and R.honey :D its damn bloody hell nice ok?! lazy to post what happen today but its just a damn fun day. got myself a super chio ring and many chio lashes. hehehe xD. money flew.

detest me then just tell me then. i flirt with him? which him you referring to? if is kenneth then so sorry, i wun even want to waste my energy to flirt with him. you just dunno what he is talking to me about only. we are talking about serious stuff and cca related stuff. and why everyone talking with us is laughing? caz i keep guailan him and thats call flirting? if yes then i dunno whats yours. i have been keep alot of comments and stuff to myself le. now i dun find it a need to. saving face for you seems to be unnessasary le. i never stand by your side and listen to your story? so sorry but to tell you its not caz you keep repeating yourself but is you seriously freak me out with your feeling for her. it seriously damn...i dunno how to put it.. angry caz i tell my stuff to her first? i seriously dunno whats there to angry about. hello i am your friend not your stead. hate my stead? you say you cant tell me then what for you post it? i didnt ask you to like my stead. its MY stead so i wun care if you all like or dun like. i wun ask you all along if going out with him too unless it really like him and miaoting which are friends too. you what if you hate him? what you expect me to do? break with him caz of you? i think you should seriously do some self reflect. not only about her thing but the way you carry out yourslef and the way you do things. i can tell you alot people cant take it. but we just tahan it and didnt shoot you infront of you caz we treat you as friend and dunwan you to lose face. things you started doing nowadays really make us feel disgusted and irritated. dun think that you did nothing wrong just caz no one comment about it. want to continue "be yourself" and refuse to change then get prepared to lose more and more friends bah.i put in this font and colour not cause i scared you read but its just not the main thing in my post.

2009-09-12T01:09:00.001+08:00

"all i have is stitch"

quoted from somewhere where only you and i will know. now, all i have is really stitch. all i have by my side is stitch. where you? what happened to you now? i am worried. damn worried. how i wish i could be by your side.

2009-09-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

PUA STUNT DAY! haha.. today had hell loads of fun at jp and plaza sing. got new wawas today again. going to post photo of my wawa collection next time. today at jp was damn fruitful haha. shopped around and spend little money. bus down to plaza sing and lots of stupid stunt was did. damn malu but damn damn fun. went plaza sing and aloy need go toilet, so went and waited outside for them. suddenly they ask me to go off. thought what happen in the end is somebody and somebody er hmm... in the toilet and giving out those noise. LOL!. went to vivo. blah blah blah and homed. :D
quarrels kept coming. everything was ok le. :D

2009-09-07T01:14:00.005+08:00

HOLIDAY.. nothing funny happen?? today just a normal day. but bi lost his car. shag. holiday here. homework not alot. so quite ok. dunno if want go sign up neebo tmr mah. but haix. nvm. post tmr. seriously lack of things to update.
seriously sometimes i just felt that i am nothing to you. sms you never reply only when i call then got pick up and after pick up its just a "playing dota now le, sms you". ending up is I sms you and somemore you never reply. send you goodnight message also no reply. wanted to spend more time with you, ask you sleep earlier so can wake up earlier. in the end slept in the morning and wake up in afternoon caz want to take mc if not sure sleep till 2-3pm de. i really dun know what to say. oovoo with you also everynight look at you play gundam, if not you will be watching show or serving some website.ask you send me stitch photo so that i can do blogskin and entertain myself and you cant even spend that 5 min just to upload the photo and send it to me.haix. nvm.

2009-09-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

CRAZY & FUN.. today school overall was fun. haha. erm lesson as usual is sian. geog was fun though caz no teacher. hahaha. so we gossiping all the way. pressure test okok nia. not very confident. eng slack again. recess damn fun! hahaha. before we go recess, LIM come to ask my group of gossip-ers if we want do oral. then 1 of the joker said something like we dun do "oral" or something like that. LOL. my class is filled with perverts. hahaha. then eat crap chat in class. teach them hokkien and haffis said something in chi and of course is something horny.laugh all the way and went for chi. do nth again. form class of course slack. then went for chi oral. overall ok bah. but conversation kind of screwed. eng oral was fun but screwed too. i tio richard umbers. i totally cannot understand what he is talking so kindof screwed too. got like 26/40? haiz. but nvm. today was damn funny and i become like 1 kuku siao peh. damn crazy today like my name "fengzi". went home and went to meet bi at polyclinic. went jp. played MT(not miaoting!!). then joke around. make bi keep laughing haha. he tortured my mickey. ke lian de mickey. i keep laugh whole day non-stop caz bi got a new pimple at SOMEWHERE! hahaha. dun think yellow, is somewhere funny caz no one usually will have pimple there. even bi say i today SUPER SOT PLUG.hahaha. when going home, a fat lady walk past us then i just say " eh bi, what if...." then he suddenly laugh and drop his cig. hahaha. caz he knew i wanted to say " what if i turn as fat as her" LOL!. xin ling xiang tong sia. hahaha. now oovoo-ing (webcam chat) with him but he is fixing his gundam.... so i am posting.....

2009-09-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

MISSES..went to school today. talked to mingyeow. edlyn dun anyhow think arh. is talking about SOME thing. ahahaha. then talk to shuxian. assembly. blah blah blah. emath choo never come so free period. had heart-to-heart chat with shushu. hahaha. seriously know how each other feel. haix. then physic revise pressure. quite an easy topic. read period=sleep period. recess no need say sleep also. like a pig today. then is EL. went for dental. hahaha. but tomorrow got oral. sian. need stay back. then is amath. lalala. chem quite slack caz half a class gone. went to eat with r.honey and bodoh. laugh like hell over some pervert thing that the 2 of them think de. polluted mind. ahahaha. went home rot...
LESBO! miss you....
bi. miss you too.

2009-08-30T14:02:00.003+08:00

New hairstyle??blog is so damn dead. no time post. nothing to post. now waiting for a pig to bath finish then go out. damn tired now. ytd went for dance. everything was ok. the dance is nice, creative. the chinese dance part is easy but the hip hop part is much more difficult. now having muscle ache x.x common test result not very good. but I PASS MY GEOG! hahaha. so damn happy when i know it. like FINALLY after 8 months i first time passed my geog. LOL. and thats cause i never listen in class and i studied on my own and i passed. hahaha. the rest haiz.....

english- ~~failed~~
chinese-32/50
emath-38/40!!! :D
amath-22/40 (heng)
chem- 25/40(??forget)
phy-~~16.5/40 (expected)~~
geog-15/25 :D
lit-12.5/25
ss-~~8/25~~

continue when i reached home :D

edited:11:02pm
went to jp with pig. haha. then pei him go work. then meet r.honey at batok then headed back to jp. walked around waited for seats. got pekcek and decided to dine in at new york new york. this time round de food not as fantastic as their fish & chips. quite dissapointed. didnt have a good dinner. 1st food not very good, below expectation. 2nd theres a pig and two indians sitting beside me. the sight of pig eating almost make me puked and the indian is talking none stop making me no mood to eat. butbut. me and r.honey got a great laugh over the way the pig is eating "leftover" food. hahahaha. and when we walking around to decide what to eat, we saw this indian girl wearing her pyjamas to jp. hahahaha! i wun even dare to step out of my house with that kind of clothes. shop at everlast and saw quite some things that i want to buy. hahaha. itchy eyes coming back. bought myself a new bag and home sweet home. tomorrow no lesson!! :D

PHOTOS: fringeless....

2009-08-20T05:38:00.005+08:00

1 MONTH :D 20th today(: and damn fast its our 1 month le. not going say anything here as its in the card. hmm. 9 subject, 7 down le. left with 2 exams. 1 is just in a few hours time. dun really think that will do well this time. haiz. brain just go blank everything when i got the papers. updated more when i got things to update(:

bi, dun worry i promise i wun leave you just caz of army. dun think too much:D HAPPY 1st MONTH!

2009-08-15T10:30:00.005+08:00

累了，真的累了。但是还是不想放手。exams stress. family stress. personal stress. religion stress. all stress coming down on me. breaking down soon? or i have aready broke down. didnt i warn myself about it before? but i chose what i am now. very tired, super tired. no matter how happy i am everyday, i am scared. i didnt regret at all but i cant tahan soon. trying hard to change, give in but everythings doesnt seems to change much. recess ,like what edlyn say, is it a must? i dunwan. haix. think i should just stop thinking and start my mugging and stop my gastric before i die of it...

bi. its not your fault. i know you are changing, i can see it, OF people can see it too. its my problem. i told you i am fine with it, but ended up i am not. i dunno what to do now, i am scared, very scared.ILY.IMY

2009-08-12T21:34:00.002+08:00

TIRED @.@ has been kind of lack of sleep these few days. dunno why just cant sleep well keep thinking of alot of stuff. haiz. school was fun but sleepy too. all lessons are like getting more &more boring and making me want to sleep. but got alot of jokes too. start to love my class even more though got alot of irritating guys that gossip worst than girls && love to make "jokes" that they think is funny and will laugh out loud like nobody business. looking forward towards tomorrow school as its a slacking day :D

8 more days.. hope i can continue counting..

&&i think i should learn to trust people more and be more independent bah.

2009-08-09T14:08:00.006+08:00

EXAMS! yesterday night went to celebrated anna's bf birthday. and went home after that. bath and went into my room happily sms-ing and playing psp. suddenly i saw something freaking big and brown on the floor! i walked out to call for help but suddenly it flew and i screamed. me and my sis spend like 10 min to kill that freaking bastard/bitch. we threw magazine on it and step on the magazine and we heard a pop sound. ee~ haha. that i went jumping on the magazine to make sure that its 100% dead. clean up the room and bodies. haha. and went to sleep. (: maybe going to watch fireworks later.

sorry for the post. it has been 3 weeks but can say we have quarrelled alot. but i still love you. the first guy that i bring to my house. the first guy that my family knew i am in relationship of. the first guy that i am willing to change for. :D

*edited 02:01am
haha. went out. damn fun. bi go catch wawa for me again. night took neoprint and went home. on the way back on mrt, pua alot of stunt and all is damn stupid but super funny. haha. nothing much to say. will post up the photos of the stunt after i got them. :D IMPORTANT stuff now. i bet you guys misses my face so. hehe. posting up my photos :D dun wan to see then dun come my blog.

BTW! mr. weijie drama guy requested me to put him under my "precious list". so putted liao. those that want me to put your name de can come and tell me (: i will put your name down de.

2009-08-01T11:49:00.004+08:00

BACK! exams coming!! going to chiong all the way for my physic and geog.. the 2 sure die subject. come back home then post if i got things to post lah :D
LESBO! get well soon arh. :D
HONEY! sorry for like ps-ing though we agree that no matter what will still accompany each other. but soon!! i will accompany you back de.(:

this is what happen when school become bored.

2009-07-29T16:14:00.008+08:00

Hi all! not going to update for a period of time :D. will be back soon.

dun keep saying that you all have trust in me when i cant even feel a single bit of trust from the whole family anymore. it doesnt seems to be where i use to be in anymore.

2009-07-20T21:07:00.001+08:00

:Dhope i wun regret what i do now. but but HOMEWORK HOMEWORK! stress~

LOVE MY LESBO!! dun worry! no one will replace you (:!

2009-07-18T10:44:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL!haix 2 more days include today of free days left. sian sian sian. lots of homework waiting for me. today 12 suppose to meet people but now 11 liao and all still sleeping so i am not going to care too. yesterday went out and chatted alot with ♥LESBO just simply LOVE her alot. the one the will pei me throughout my life of course i will pei her too lah. (: && realise she is really damn anti-social. HAHAHA. she get tense up when going out with other people then she is not close with. HAHAHAHA think of the sight then want to laugh again liao. :D update when i come home later. dunno what time going out though.

2009-07-14T09:27:00.003+08:00

SICK ): time to post for my dead blog though i dun think anyone will read. maybe a few nia bah. got urge to go school suddenly at home is so damn freaking bored. only got me, myself, i, my lappy, my tv and soon my mama coming back. haha. ♥mama haha today pon school and she didnt say anything and still smiling and joking with me. of course theres a reason. now is H1N1 period and me & er jie kena flu. i started off with running nose. really run till like running marathon, so i pon cca. then my er jie got cough and somehow yesterday i start to have sorethroat went to sleep. woke up like 7 times in the middle of the night. finally 6+ woke up and feel damn cold so went market to find mama tell her i not going school. she agree then on the way feel damn damn cold. like freezing liao. went back and sleep. now woke up and i got headache, muscle ache, running nose, fever 38.1degree and sorethroat. haha. maybe caz last sunday went to republic poly? hahaha. continue later :D

*edited 12.28

reached home at 12 +? waited for doctor for near 1h.when i reached there it was damn crowded. took my temp 38.5. was feeling fucking cold there. wait wait and wait. getting higher and higher. my turn. doc say give my body 1 more day to heal if really still having high fever then need go back buy the tummy flu tablet caz is most likely H1 N1 liao since i have sore throat and bodyache. but now she say should be just a virus nia not H1N1. waited for my medicine and body ache like siao. literally all my joints are aching like hell. then took medicine & drag my feet back. WTH i walk until half way liao then sis call me ask her go back clinic to pass her money she scared not enough. i walk back and home again and its like i just ran 5 rounds of the school field, catching for breathe and body ache even more. reached home rest and eat medicine. lucky my medicine save me. now body not aching so much liao but still got a little still can tahan. so i am back to my lappy and post but i just took my freaking temperature and it is 39.1 DEGREE!!! wth. think i can boil egg on my forehead liao. haiz going to rest dun miss and jealous caz i got 3 DAYS M.C. !!!!

2009-07-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

why do i regret so much??

2009-07-05T21:59:00.006+08:00

HONEY♥bored ._.

2009-07-03T23:04:00.002+08:00

MISS ME?? :D hehehe.. realise have been neglecting this blog. caz i got really nth to post. today accompany rowena go bugis for her naval pierce. LOL. abit kanjong for her caz the piercer abit gong gong blur blur de. still ask me help see if got straight-.- then went to walk walk. TOOK NEOPRINT! om-tian. neoprint sound so weird to me le. liek damn long never take le. then we got sian so she went home cause of some weird reasons LOL! then pangseh me and R eat alone. but i nv eat too just killing my time waiting for the time to reach. but haiz nvm. everything was dissapointing. LOVE HUN! <3

2009-06-29T19:05:00.005+08:00

1ST DAY OF SCHOOL! haha. erm bored? slack? happy? caz my attire check pass. haha. of course will pass since i am a so guai. hehehe. (hate my long skirt though...) no teacher collect homework so i am not like being scolded. :D after school went to eat sakae with HUN & co. so damn funny, xiasuay, idiotic, unglam there lah. after that bodoh vomited caz eat too much?? && funniest is got some came out from her NOSE. like everything gush up with so much force that it went to the nose && worst! she say she saw that she vomitted OCTOPUS out! caz she ate the octopus sushi last!! LMAO!!**CCA cancel for 1 whole week :DD

"痛到忘了要怎么喊痛","漫长的等候让人特别失落 "

2009-06-28T21:56:00.002+08:00

MISS my nails ): haiz! tomorrow sch reopen. and my cca actually still on! cant pon caz if this session pon would be the third means i will get my 2nd warning letter. haha. just reached home and the cab driver is like DRUNK! and he told me he fucking get his license in NS then i immediately thinking do he really know how to drive and dun even think he know the traffic rules. so many times almost kena accident. can you believe he actually turn his WHOLE HEAD back to talk to me when he is actually driving!! i swear his car machiam like flying sia. glad that i still can sit infront of my lappy and type (: HATE SCHOOL! need to slp soon..

2009-06-27T19:29:00.005+08:00

update of homework...OMG i still got long way to go):

~~1) EL vocab book~~
2) Book review-nt going to care
~~3) EW(asknlearn)tio removed no need do :D~~
~~4)CL 2 yu wen lian bi~~
~~5) CL 1 ying yong wen( haven hand up :x)~~
6) CL 4 jian bao
~~7) read CL book~~
~~8) Amaths paper (43 questions)~~
~~9) Emaths revision paper~~
~~10) EA Maths 2 tests (heymaths benchmark)(finish 1st 2)~~
~~11) Literature project~~
~~12) Literature litespeed~~
~~13) Chemistry quiz (litespeed)~~
14) Chemistry assignment (litespeed)-doing last?
~~15) SS worksheet(SBQ)~~
16) Physics assignment (litespeed)-doing last.
17) Physics paper-doing last.
18) Physics journal (2 per week)
~~19)Geog litespeed~~
20)Geog revision paper-doing last

2009-06-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

PHOTOS. nth to post about so posting up all the photos i took today. zilian alot today caz was bored at home BUT not posting all. (:

LESBO <3

2009-06-24T21:23:00.002+08:00

CHILDREN OUTING PHOTOS! more to come :D(sorry for all unglam :x)

或许我能放他走是应为我相信她能给他幸福

2009-06-22T16:16:00.006+08:00

HOMEWORK!! ):

~~1) EL vocab book~~
2) Book review
~~3) EW(asknlearn)tio removed no need do :D~~
4)CL 2 yu wen lian bi
5) CL 1 ying yong wen( haven hand up :x)
6) CL 4 jian bao
~~7) read CL book~~
~~8) Amaths paper (43 questions)~~
~~9) Emaths revision paper~~
~~10) EA Maths 2 tests (heymaths benchmark)(finish 1st 2)~~
~~11) Literature project~~
~~12) Literature litespeed~~
~~13) Chemistry quiz (litespeed)~~
14) Chemistry assignment (litespeed)
~~15) SS worksheet(SBQ)~~
16) Physics assignment (litespeed)
17) Physics paper
18) Physics journal (2 per week)
19)Geog litespeed
20)Geog revision paper

2009-06-20T23:54:00.001+08:00

爱得很深所以心很疼

真实-ahmei

你说的话在我心中生了根

爱得很深所以心很疼

记忆在我的心中翻滚

是不是每一个人

都像我一样笨

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍

我能感觉另外一个人

我等等笑容换成泪痕

爱在崩溃的时候比较真

太多疑问知道答案又如何

原来容忍不需要天份

只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺

我忘了这是第几次

一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智

会不会是我太自私

拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开也看不见未来

难道这种不完美

才是爱情真实的样子

2009-06-20T09:33:00.003+08:00

BACK! chalet was fun! its what i didnt expect it to be like. :D

1st day

went to buy their wine and i swear i fucking heavy lah can. heng got darren.c and jason.a help me carry though is i force jason.a to come de.LOL. but seriously thank them. went to the chalet by mrt. had a LONG chat on the mrt. check in and my hand de XIE guan brust. those minor de brust lah. damn pain. then went in the room slack here slack there. was bored. so we played poker. or did we went for lunch first?? :x had chicken rice and our da wei wang darren.c ate 1 chicken rice 1 kuey zhup and 1 ice kachang. hahaha and his "moutain" fall when he is eating. went back waited for v-baller come. went to have our dinner. MAHJONG! haha. first time had a FUNNY mahjong session. got 1 game got total of 3 xiao xiang gong! darren.c and jason.a forget to pu hua and we was laughing at them ended up i have da xiang gong and continue laugh until me da xiang gong became "small" LOL. then only left jingyu can hu but he got no tai at all so ended up everyone laugh until stomach ache and luan luan wan. hehehe. mahjong all the way and the rest went to watch "drag me to hell" and we went to mac cafe at 1+ and went back to bath. we had "peace" when they are away but once they are back i can hear them so clearly when i am bathing -.- then played cards while some slept/watch dvd. blah blah blah. almost all sleep le. me yuanting lucas darren went out to have a walk and chatted about stuff. haha. went back sat down in a circle and everyone talked. kilice kept got bluff by us. so funny lah. before we slept/nap the guys got so horny -.- haha and we joined them in didisiaosiao-ing. so funny. had a great fun and slept.

2nd day

got woke up and mahjong again! when we didnt even brush our teeth:x 10+ we stopped and wash up and went to KBOX!! ( yuanteng jiayu hanyan me chuajeng hanwei jason.a and darren.c) this was the most fun part. went in at 11. first song was "first day" the guys was shock caz first song nia and we got high high like siao lang. LOL. the at one side leng diao and eat. after that asked them to sing and the whole room was high. had alot of fun and puo ying. :x LOL. and we took photo as its the promotion if everyone buy 1 photo $2 we can extend 1h more. so we bought haha can keep as ji nian too. alot of fun funny things happen. i was almost frooze to death. LOL. the air-con there like no need money to pay de lor. this is can say the most fun session i have with my schmates and so many of them caz normally alot ppl then sure alot leng diao but this time everyone got high. :D went back and kilice went home le ): wanted to sleep but cant. but but darren.c slept so all of us bully him. wahaha. first is blast music at his ear and he woke up. and we realise he everywhere also pa yang. LOL. so when to tickle him then he say he want to sleep with us girl. so we say he dare he come leh. and he got tickle and disiao till siao. nicholas came in. forget what he done all i can rmb is he hit my head! first one that hit without thinking. blah blah blah. had BBQ. many things happen dunwan say here. the 06 guys was serving us girls.haha thanks! :D then joke ard too. went up. slack slack and drank. zhiyee jiayu and yuanteng was damn red. hanzu hanwei and paul too.some went to buy wine. we had a "great" time with those seh de ppl -.- i slapped the guys so many times and had fun :x LOL. all seh de slept and we had peace. continue to drink and some slept. play true or dare. kena some dare but dun dare to do caz feel weird! went out haha. was abit "going round" liao. blah blah blah. somethings happen. funny and crazy but cant say here. went back all say want continue play true or dare but all knock out. so slept. awhile nia.

3rd day

didnt know why all wake up to send the v-baller(girls) hanzu paul and darren "out". actually just say bye nia. LOL. so pack everything blah blah blah. check out. on the way back i really can sense how deeply blah love blah. had like a moment of emo-ness. then slept. LOL. went home slept and went to KMI.

overall. LOVE this chalet and all ended so fast though its aready 3d2n but it all seems so short. hope to go out with them soon :D

friend have the same fate?

why both of us encounter the same thing...

只要爱错一个人

爱太深无法承受

i have aready been numb by my feelings

hope you will be ok too!

dun shed tears for guys anymore!

anything talk to us bah :D

2009-06-17T10:23:00.000+08:00

CHALET from 17-19june (: contact me through phone(: number is at my msn pm:D

2009-06-16T21:52:00.004+08:00

HONEY!!today got tution haix so many tution -.- then honey came my house. slack. chat. day-dream. and we started to do chocolate!! erm not do to be exact is melt and reform. LOL. damn cute lah. will post photo after i get them from hun. nth much liao. just tmr is chalet le!! so happy lah!! :DD hope it will be a fun one :D

2009-06-13T23:14:00.007+08:00

ROWENA MISS ME!today went oko so rowena had a lonely night without me! LOL and when i online she said that she miss me until she haven even eat her dinner! so sweet! LOL. but today was really quite boring.. so this is wat happen to me.. rowena too..not sure i she will post abt it.... *this few days i damn 心理不平衡caz i got like so tan after ROD. and is UNEVEN TAN! ppl say i look like i very dirty like that ): ): super sad sia! i wan bleach myself!

just this 3 the rest is all super jiao bin! caz i wanted to take photo with my 小星星but keep fail. so forget it. :D

NIGHT SLACKING!

i was on phone and she was camwhore-ing so to prevent having my unglam photo. i looked into her cam and really got me inside :DD

OMG OMG!!my ugly eyebag! its getting more and more jialat ):

2009-06-12T10:15:00.001+08:00

why?everytime when you are going to be forgotten,you came back again.

2009-06-10T22:24:00.003+08:00

ANGRY!this post is going to filled with all sorts of unpolite things so those who cant take it then by all means go away...

DOG!was fucking angry when i saw that post. buey song me come infront of me tell me lah! nnbcb didnt dare tell me take group mate to fa pi qi! then now post abt me! so what i slack with juniors! i am not the one who ask them to start slacking right! they slacking liao and i didnt tie them up and drag them with me right! they want follow de wat! and plz fucking mind your own buisness first. go and look at your own attitude always give ppl jiaobin think ppl like arh?! want scold me then put my big big name on your blog lah dun fucking talk half hide half. wan scold dun scold. && want emo go emo lah go tell whole world for wat? what you wan? attract attention isit?! i dun care if you see this post anot instead i hope you will see it! wan scold me? want talk abt me? next session i whole session sit down there wait for you to come and scold me then! by all means wan scold then scold. dun end up diam diam there. in case you all dunno who i scolding she's angela.

2009-06-08T21:50:00.002+08:00

LPS! went out have a small small small gathering with the pri 6 '06 peeps. was quite fun or should say funny looking at then playing bball is better than watching a comedy. wahahaha. and i have fun talking to "sbaby" LOL!

2009-06-08T09:41:00.005+08:00

super tired! was back from ROD. dun want to blog abt what happen caz i dun think that this is a gd ROD. was back by 3+ ytd? online abd fell aslp so woke up and went to bed. 6+ was woke up by dad and took him quite a long time to wake me up. can see how tired am i. x.x then eat le online 20min? then went to slp. was being woke up again caz i slept at sis bed. then continue slping. all the way until now. total of 17h of slp. :D but but this means that my 1 whole week of holiday's gone!! and my tons of homework -.- haiz. BTW though i said that this year ROD was not gd but i do enjoy it (: was really bonded with my juniors :D however i got injuries too lah. cut all round my leg. all was minor but the 1 at my ankle was more serious as its like 2cm long? or longer? what causes it to be more serious is not the original injury but is after i injuried i didnt keep it clean instead i went to setup soapy stuff and dirty watermelon juice :x going to do my homework! and i mean it! of the sake of my GSS i have to chiong my homework (:

Holiday assingments:
~~1) EL vocab book~~
2) Book review
3) EW(asknlearn)
4)MT 2 yu wen lian bi
5) MT 1 ying yong wen( haven hand up :x)
6) MT 4 jian bao
7) read MT book
8) Amaths paper (43 questions)
~~9) Emaths revision paper~~
10) EA Maths 2 tests (heymaths benchmark)(finish 1st 2)
11) Literature project
12) Literature litespeed
13) Chemistry quiz (litespeed)
~~14) Chemistry assignment (litespeed)~~
15) SS worksheet(SBQ)
16) Physics assignment (litespeed)
17) Physics paper
18) Physics journal (2 per week)
19)Geog litespeed
20)Geog revision paper

2009-06-04T23:25:00.002+08:00

BACK! was freaking tired. so wat happen in chalet i am not gonna say in detail. but it was fun! especially the wild wild wet part though the thing inside is quite bored but with the ppl i went with it was fucking fun lah! LOL. but sad caz i lost my precious spike earring. nvm. getting the same spike ear ring as hun soon! (:(:(: ohya! almost forget! throughout the whole chalet mark has been taking off his top. not becaz of wat but becaz of his dare! he even run round the chalet half naked haha and an aunty ask "ni zai zhuo she mo"wahaha. damn funny.PHOTO!

i said PHOTO not PHOTOS so only 1 haha. our very unique pose of group pic :DD slowly guess who is who!

imissyouagain

jasminetagged le link me
when i am free? :x
bryan tagged
i saw -.-
EDLYN:D YO! HAHAHAH.
YOYO!
rowena.thanks thanks thanks for today! <3>
OMG! think alot guys will bash me up:D
Xiaoxin (:
:D
TONY MIA liao?
back liao :D