累了，真的累了。但是还是不想放手。exams stress. family stress. personal stress. religion stress. all stress coming down on me. breaking down soon? or i have aready broke down. didnt i warn myself about it before? but i chose what i am now. very tired, super tired. no matter how happy i am everyday, i am scared. i didnt regret at all but i cant tahan soon. trying hard to change, give in but everythings doesnt seems to change much. recess ,like what edlyn say, is it a must? i dunwan. haix. think i should just stop thinking and start my mugging and stop my gastric before i die of it...

bi. its not your fault. i know you are changing, i can see it, OF people can see it too. its my problem. i told you i am fine with it, but ended up i am not. i dunno what to do now, i am scared, very scared.ILY.IMY