CNY! ytd was bored. went uncle house but he isnt there to celebrate new year with us anymore but went there as a respect for my aunty. stayed at home after that. today went ahma house. gamble & crap with cousins as usual. those kors kors are still the best. they are really born to be a clown. make you laugh like hell. hahaha! this year they became the fortune teller. hahaha. after that went miaoting house to bainian. then wanted to go play jubeat and have dinner but something happen and alot of thing happened. regretted my stupidness. but still cant blame anyone but myself. everything since last year all i could do is blame on myself. now i have a frog voice and i will have difficulties singing properly.

this time round i have fallen very badly real bad i could feel the pain not only in my heart but everywhere. today i have finally seen everything, realise eveything and woken up from everything. the muijie thats hard to get close to is back. she learnt to protect herself from getting hurt is far more important than thinking if others will get hurt. this 2hour of being forced to calm down has woken me up. you pulled me out of my oldself now you pushed me so hard that i fall damn badly and has turned worst than last time. perhaps thats a lesson learn for me.