sometimes i really wish that i can know you better. like that i am able to care for you more and understand you better, do whatever i can do for you but you always just choose to hide it, dun wan to mention about it.
今天期中考，学校早一点放学，我打了通电话给他。
today is EOY examinations, school will end early, i
called him.
：喂，我今天比较早放学，你来载我回家好不好？
hey, today i will end school earlier,
you fetch me home ok?
：好，等我五分钟。
ok, give me 5 mins
：五分钟？我学校就在你家旁边耶。
5 mins? your house is just beside my school.
：我总要打扮一下啊。
i need time
to dress up right.
：好啦，快一点喔。
ok ok. faster.
下午2：00，太阳大的让我有种冲动想喷鼻血，我站在树荫下挥动着手，虽然没凉到哪里去，但是煽总比不煽好。
2p.m the weather
is so hot and always made my nose bleed, i stand under the tree, waving me hand,
though it did not help much but at least better than nothing.
五分钟过了，他还没来，我看看手表，有点不高兴，十分钟过了，他还没到..，该不会出了什么事吧？
5 mins pass, he is still
not here yet, i look at my watch, feeling a little unhappy, 10 mins later, he is
still not here.....did something happen to him?
呸呸呸…乌鸦嘴，十五分钟过了，他总算到了。
choi....touch wood. 15 mins past, he finally came.
：怎么这么慢？
why
so slow?
他一副无所谓的样子说：没啊，看个电视。
nothing, watching tv. he said it with a
cant be bothered face.
什么？看个电视？你要不要顺便睡个觉洗个澡吃个饭再来？
what?! watching tv? do
you want to take a nap, take a bath, eat your lunch then come?
我没有说话，没有拿安全帽，没有上车的瞪着他。
i did not talk, did not take the helmet, did not
go up the bike, standing there staring at him.
：对不起。
"i am sorry"
这是他第一次对我说对不起，他是一个很大男人主义，爱面子的男生，所以他从不像女生低头说对不起，我看着他，好吧，似乎面有惭色，我带上安全帽，让他载我回家。
this is the first time he said sorry, he is someone with lots of ego, hence
he never ever give in to a girl and say sorry. i look at him, ok, i wore the
helmet and shall let him send me home.
他总是这样，从来不解释，不争论，不跟我吵架，只跟我说对不起，有些事，不是一句对不起就能解决的，但是他都跟我道歉了，我也就没再追究下去，他说，我是第一个让他说对不起的女生。
he is always like that, always did not want to explain, fight to explain
himself and quarrel with me. all he do is apologise. something, a" i am sorry"
cant solve it. however, he aready apologise hence i didnt bother about the
matter too.he told me i am the first girl that made him apologise.
认错需要很大的勇气，但是他从来都没有改进他的错误，对不起反而变成一种打发我的话。
admitting wrong needs alot of
courage but he never change, "i am sorry" became something that he said just to
make thing simple and end the topic faster.
在他说第59次对不起时，我流着泪，低下头说：你不要再跟我说对不起了，如果你无法改变，就不要让我给你一次又一次的机会，相信你会改变。
when
he said the 59th "i am sorry", tears rolled down my cheeks,"dont say sorry to me
anymore, is you cant change, then stop making me giving you one chance after
another, i believe you will change"
他轻轻的拥着我，说了第60句对不起。
he hugged me and
said the 60th "i am sorry"
虽然如此，他还是没有改变，不做任何的解释，我开始怀疑他是不是有事瞒着我。
however,
he still didnt change, did not bother to explain himself, i start to suspect
that he is hiding something from me.
：你最近怎么了？
what happen to you
recently?
：没有啊。
nothing.
：那你为什么心情不好？
what made you so moody?
：没有啊。
nothing
：又是没有啊，你除了这句话以外没有别的吗？你知不知道我很担心，很没有安全感，你到底有没有当我是你女朋友？
nothing again! do you know how to reply using other words? do you know that
i am very worried, feeling insecure, did you treat me as your girfriend?
：…对不起。
i am sorry
：我不要听你说对不起。
i dun wan to hear your "i am
sorry"
我挂了电话，他也没有打来，他根本就不在乎我，也许，我们该结束ㄌ……….这是他说的第99句对不起….。
i hang the
phone. he did not call back too. he did not bother about me, perhaps its time to
let him go.....this is his 99th "i am sorry".
从那天开始，我再也没有找过他，他也没有打电话给我，有时候，我会接到一通无声的电话，但是我喂了几声，就挂了，有一种直觉是他，但是他为什么都不说话？
since then, i did not contact him, he did not call me too. sometimes, there
will be a silent call, i said hi and few times and the guy hang up. i got a
feeling is him but why he did not want to talk?
一个月之后，我按奈不住思念的心情决定到他学校找他，我在教室外东张西望的，就是没有看到他的人影，我随便抓了一个男生来问。
a month
later, i decided to go his school find him, i realise i cant forget him at all.
i glanced in the classroom but didd not see him, hence i grabbed a guy and asked
him.
：同学，请问一下，梦伟今天有来吗？
hi, did meng wei come to school today?
：他休学了。
he quit school.
：啊？为什么？什么时候的事？
huh? why? when did this
happen?
：他已经一个月没来了。
it has been a month.
：…喔..谢谢。一个月..一个月没来，怎么会呢？
oh... thanks. one month... one month didnt come. why?
我跌跌撞撞的回到家..拨他的手机：您的电话已经为您转到语音信箱，请在嘟一声…。
i walk home slowly with my
mind blank.. called his phone but it was transfered to mailbox....
我挂了电话，打到他家，响了好久都没有人接，怎么会？全家移 民吗？他仿佛是从这世界上消失了一样，没有一点痕迹。
i called his
house but no one pick up, why? did his whole family emigrate? he seems to
dissapear in this world.
他该不会另结新欢了吧？我开始胡思乱想，我找不到他..，正当我烦恼的时候，电话突然响了，是阿立打来的，他是梦伟的死党也是我的好友。
did he
find a new girlfriend? i start to think alot. i cant find him.....when i am
feeling troubled, my phone ring, it is ahli. mengwei's buddy, my good friend.
：喂，你还在干嘛啊？
hi what are you still doing?
：什么？
huh?
：ㄚ伟在医院啦。
ahwei in hospital.
：真的？他怎么了？
really? what happen to
him?
：没有啦，他在○○医院，就是你上次住的那一家。
nothing, he at oo hospital, the one you
stayed in last time.
：我马上去。
ok. i rush over.
我立刻用我出生以来最大的速度飙到那家医院，在医院看到了他****和妈妈，我向他们问了他在哪一间病房之后，就急忙的飞奔而去。
i used
the greastest speed since i ever born to rush to the hospital, at the hospital i
say his parents and ask for his bed number.
他躺在床上，眼睛看着我，没有说话，没有起床，一动也不动的。
he lied on the bed, looking at me, did not speak a single word, never move.
：喂，你怎么了？为什么不通知我呢？
what happen to you? why you didnt contact me?
他没有回答我，只是一直用同样的眼神看着我。
he didtn reply, using the same kind of look
looking at me.
：回答我啊，你为什么不说话？
reply me.. why you never talk?
他眼角留下了一滴泪，身体仿佛用了最大的力气，牵动着嘴角 ：…对不起…。
a tear rolled down from the corner
of his eyes, using his greatest strength and move his mouth, " i am sorry"
说完，他闭上了眼睛。 ：喂，你别装了好不好，为什么要说对不起，我不要你说对不起啊，你起来啊，回答我啊。
after that, he
closed his eyes... hey! you dun act can? why say sorry? i dunwan you to say
sorry. wake up! reply me!
我哭倒在他床边，拉着他的衣服哭喊着：你为什么要说对不起，连说服我的理由都没有？我不会原谅你，你起来啊，你说对不起没有用啊，你不起来我这辈子
都不会原谅你，我求求你….睁开眼睛啊…。
i fell beside his bed crying, holding on to his
shirt and shouting; why you dun want to reply me?? you cant even convince me
with anything, i will not forgive you! you wake up arh! there no use for you to
say sorry! you owe me for life, i will not forgive you! i beg you....open your
eyes arh!!.
这是他说的一百句对不起…一群医生和护士拉开我，开始抢救他，我全身没有力气再站起来，我的头脑一片空白，眼前一片漆黑..。
this is his 100th sorry...a group of doctor and nurses pull me away and
start to rescue him. i did not have the energy to stand up, my mind is blank,
all i see is a patch of darkness.
他没有离开这个世界，只是我永远都无法触摸到他，但他有时也会在我的梦中出现，告诉我他过的好不好。
he didnt leave this
word, is just that i cant touch him forever, but he would appear in my dream
sometimes and tell me that how he is living.
他还是陪着我，还是活着，在我心里，他依然如昔，还是会笑着叫我咏熙，叫我老婆，只是..他不再对我说对不起了…。
he is still with
me, still alive, in my heart, he is still like the past, still call me yongxi,
still call me wifey, its just that....he dun say sorry to me anymore...
过了几个月，他妈妈来找我，给了我一个盒子，里面装的，是一百张照片，每一张照片的背面，都写着它让我生气的事情。
after a few
months, his mum came and look for me, she passed me a box, there 100 photos
inside. behind each photo, he wrote and the things he made me angry.
第一次对不起，老婆，我今天不是故意迟到的，我也知道理由很烂，但是我真的不忍心说实话，我在出门前突然心脏绞痛，但是我已经尽量赶了，原谅我好吗？
第二次对不起?老婆，我………. 第三次对不起，老婆，我… ………………………….. ………………………. ………………. …………….
……….. ……… …..
第一百次对不起，老婆，我不是狠心要丢下你，只是上帝似乎不给我这个机会让我爱你一辈子，为你带上戒指，你是我第一个让我说对不起的女孩，也是我第一
个想共度一生的女孩，原谅我不能给你幸福，我会化作天使，守护着你，看着你得到幸福，答应我，别哭，我不要看到你为了我憔悴流泪的样子，我爱你。bye 梦伟
1st "i am sorry", wifey, today i am not purposely de, i know my excuse is
very lousy, but i cant bear to tell you the truth. before i went out i felt a
sharp pain in my heart, i tried to rush, forgive me?... 2nd"i am sorry", wifey,
i..............3rd "i am sorry" wifey, i..............
........................... ................. .......................
...................... ...................... .................................
........................
..................... .................. 100th "i
am sorry" wifey, is not that i want to leave you alone, is just that god dun
seems to give me a chance to love you forever, help you wear the ring. you are
the first girl that made me say i am sorry, you are also the first girl that i
wish to spend my whole life with. forgive me, forgive me for not able to
continue to love you and treasure you, i will made myself be your guardian
angel, protecting you, looking at you finding another guy that really love you.
promise me, dun cry, i dunwan to see you crying for me, feeling sad for me. I
LOVE YOU. bye mengwei.....
我怎么可能不哭，你的要求太严苛了，最后一张照片，是他在医院理拍的，照片上他笑的很灿烂，他变的好瘦，脸色好苍白，但是他还是露出了笑容，拍这第一百张照片。
how can i not cry, your request is too mean, the last photo is taken in the
hospital, in the photo, he smiled brightly, he slimmed down alot, he look very
pale, but he still showed his brightest smile and took the 100th photo....
