CAN I BE MORE COLD BLOODED? hehe:D today i went crazy & siao again. so long since i am the crazy kuku me le:D went to find dear dear & he still in his lala land when i reach his house lor. but he had fever after that ): told him dun go out today le. nua at his home whole day but he die die want to poke those balls when the cue-.- so went timah with xavier & pui pui (: hahaha. i played today caz..i dunno why too. just got the mood to. then i won dear dear :D hahaha. i went more high after that. first time sia. but caz he sick thats why i can win. hahaha. then sort of send dear dear to his house there & slack awhile then i cab home(:

flash too strong :x

why cant i more cold blooded and dun care about other feeling so much? it has been 4 years that i have always think too much for others. i am tired. really tired. what can i do now? i felt so guilty. i wanted to change you. but i failed instead i think i cause you to fall damn hard too and now you are sort of worst. not in the way that you turn more ahbeng but you are lost in your direction of life. i'm really guilty. but i really don't know what to do too. can anyone tell me? there's no way to correct this thing. what done has been done.

i <3 my dear dear alot & nv regret being with him or neither did i take him as a replacement of him. whatever i've said is just caz i still treat him as a normal friend and i felt bad about what i cause my friend to turn into.